statement making

When I write, as I do, line by line, each line is a singular item and enters the page in the sequence it will stay in and is largely unalterable once it is fixed onto the page. I do not own them or have them pre-assigned to a pre-planned structure. I write words not poems and I want to be a stranger to them and their unlikely ways across the page. I have to resist fulfilling expectations of where they should sit and to what degree of positional force. I write them in blocks of either sounds or meanings. The enormity of a finished text never intimidates me because I only negotiate with the present utterance I am writing at the time. Once on the page the items fix to each other like a bacteria that attempts at structural editing will only cause to tighten and beat with the same mood of the moment they were written down. The best I can do is to shave and trim the formation until it operates in tension or harmony with voice.
The vocalised performance breathes a history into the printed text a history that is reoccurring and remembers my aired speech and my animating hands and the rustling paper and the air in the room and the responding noises from the gathered. This can be referred to as the second incarnation of the text one that behaves its history and welcomes shapes of spaces onto the printed page as the shapes of spaces in time and place when and where the text was evented. Calling it the second incarnation also refers to my new relationship to the text as a thing. As a thing that hosted my breathing patterns and my mouth’s movements.
What Gertrude Stein calls the time-sensed within the composition is what I call the remembering of the moment it was vocally aired in the shapes of spaces on the page which re-present the time it took to write it and the time it took to read it out and the time it took to hear it and the time it takes to read it. All of this real time and space punctuation is visually diagrammed to show spaces that are pauses and spaces that are movements and spaces that are respiration and spaces that are a place.
And so the event is permanently marked and is reoccurring as an event and a history and as a shape in space.